I'm feeling really down. Really hurt. I just can't seem to forget him. I feel distracted whenever I see him. But truthfully, I feel it's tearing apart. I don't want to lose him. Really. He told me nasty things yesterday which really makes me ponder am I really such a person as what he described. I really wish he can look at me, say goodbye to me, accompany me home. I want to feel loved by him. I wanted to talk to him. But I don't know why I didn't! I was frustrated with myself. Why can't I just open my mouth and talk to him about something. I wish he can read this and know how I feel towards him. Please understand me and I wish he can look at me and talk to me like usual. I just seems to be physically in class but not mentally. He's in my mind all along. I feel really jealous when he jokes around with girls. Am I being too sensitive? Self-centred? Haiz... Something will happen later. It's for sure. I'm prepared, but I don't wish to prepare myself for the worst. Don't leave me.

Janet
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