I'm sad. Really sad. I got the feeling like it's going to end anytime. I doubt him. I really do, even though he asked me to trust him. His words are contradicting and it doesn't make sense to me at all. All I understand is that he don't fancy me while we are both doing our own stuff, like me when we are alone. Does this make sense to you people reading this? He "claims" he loves me. Action speaks louder than words. He can say it but can he do it? He's sweet and cute, but fancy him hurting me for the second time. Kept thinking yesterday why was I so stupid to engage myself into a relationship with him. He hurt me once, and I told myself I would be strong, I would not like him again. Just a few weeks back, we chatted on msn. That was not really the sparkle, but the conversation after he left msn and message me on the phone. We talked about his past relationship, and our "relationship".Now that was the heat. We chatted till 3am. We talked a lot. This week was a very sweet and loving week, but I can sense it's going to end pretty soon. I suffered a breakdown the other time. I really wish I can be stronger this time because this isn't the first time. I don't really feel pain yesterday, but I really wished his feelings would remain the same. He told me this morning "Believe it a not, my feelings have not change for you." When I went to school, I was sad, I dare not look at him, even though later after school I stared at him. I really wish he don't give up on me. Because I really love him. People pray hard for me please? I'll tell you guys tomorrow as what will happen later and maybe tomorrow. Sad.

Janet
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