I had a very bad day today. Today is the release of the Chinese O Level results and the grade wasn't what I expected. I felt useless. I got 5 instead of a 3 I least hope for. Total rotten day today. I injured my finger today morning when I woke up. Next was the results. Then another heart breaking thing struck me. He wanted a break up. I heard it was over Nick. He's going to call me later, he said besides that it was something about my attitude.

Cried a lot in school today. First the results then about him. We smsed in class and that's how everything kinda started. I was totally despaired. It was cold in class and I was so afraid that I shivered in class. I felt my whole body shivering. Instant coldness until the first chemistry lesson ended. He came over to me when I turned back to tell Geraldine I'm shivering. That time he told me about "So I guess that's the end of us", It felt like history is repeating itself. I felt really terrible. He handed me tissues but I rejected it because at that time I was crying really hard. Geraldine asked for permission from Miss Tan to go to the toilet. I went there a bit giddy and cold still. I got lots of concerns from other friends. I felt much better. But after a while, it seems to me that things are getting worse. Haiz... I don't know how. But the relationship may draw it's chapter today.

I'm very dissappointed in my results. I'm willing to study harder. So I guess I won't blog as much. Sorry...

Janet
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