How come? Whenever I ask him to accompany me to study, I could predict my answer everytime. He would just tell me he would prefer to study alone. I'm not trying to make a big fuss out of it but it's so unfair to me. He can stay in school to study with someone else but why not me? We talk less than 10 sentences in school, get home he does his stuff and we wouldn't talk till he sleeps. Now he seldom replies my message, and I don't even know if he means it when he says "I love you". Things that happen to me in school, Just like that incident which I fell, I don't know how to tell him what other people said behind my back. I just feels he wouldn't be bothered. My heart wrenchs everytime I talk about him, just feel like we have nothing more to say. Less than 5 minutes and we would put down the phone. If I kept quiet just like last night, he wouldn't say more, we would just keep quiet. Haiz... I wanna ignore him too, but I feel worse. Just like now, crying in front of the computer. Where are you when I needed you most? You are not here....

Janet
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