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Monday, May 30, 2005

Been days since I last blogged. I didn't want to use the computer today because I've been staring at it since 8.30am! Thought I should update my blog so I used it. Right, work today is alright, for the first time. At least I'm given something to do at about 3 plus 4 plus. For the first time today, I got the urge to get breakfast. So since I'm out early, I went to Toa Payoh Central to get Breadtalk's sandwich. It's really nice but it's a little too expensive. Got up the bus at 8.03am. Reached there at 8.27am. Wasn't doing anything in the morning till about 11 plus. I couldn't log on the company system because they limited the number of users logging in. So I stayed there, doing nothing but just browse through friendster. It's very boring in the morning. Chatted online, yawn and stared blankly. Went for lunch and I was very hungry right after my breakfast. Normally if I didn't take my breakfast, I wouldn't feel hungry at all, even till lunch time. Had Lor Mee and went back to continue working after lunch. Didn't really talk much with darling today. Miss him very much. Wanted to go Expo for the Food Fair but ended up, mother didn't feel so well, so didn't go. Went back and reach home about 7 plus. The day goes on, like usual. Nothing special actually.

I'm gonna get darling his cap tomorrow! That is if I can find. It's confirmed that he's POP is on the saturday, 8.45am to 11.30am. I can have a lot week with him after that! But still, I got to work, but for that entire week, I'll feel loved and extremely blessed. He's gonna send me to and off work. Keke. Muackz! Ain't gonna blog much, I don't have much inspiration now. Rather tired too.

*darling sheng chong, i loveeeee you!

Janet
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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Found this really cool song by Black Eyed Pea - Don't Phunk With My Heart.

Woke up at 1pm today, I'm just dead tired. Slept at 1 plus close to 2 yesterday. Had a little catching up with Nick and went to sleep after that. Woke up and had maggi mee for lunch. Watched last saturday's "Nu Ren Wo Zui Da" and they were discussing on whether it's still safe to have sex during the women's period. Well, it's still safe to have sex during that period, just that it's more dirty and unhygenic. "Jenny" suggested that if people who wants to have clean sex, it's recommended to have it in the bathroom while standing. The water will run away the blood, not just that, the romantic setting is there. =x Sounds logical. They also recommend the guys to be a little more understanding when girls are having their period. Girls temper tends to be a little more explosive than usual, so they advise the guys to be a little more understanding. Let her have her ways, if not the fight will pick up faster than usual. Another thing guys can help the girls when girls are having menstrual pain, don't let them have cold drinks, but warm drinks. Let them stay at home and not walk too much, sometimes it just hurts so much you wanna squat or even lie on the floor. It just hurts like your intestines in your body are all tight up, worse than diarrhoea. That's how bad it is, so guys, please, understand your lady.

Got to work again tomorrow but tomorrow's special. Darling's gonna fetch me back from work! He's gonna meet me after work tomorrow! Keke! He's having his live grenade session this sunday so they returned his sunday to tomorrow. He's coming out at aboiut 2 plus, so he'll jsut go home and read what I'm writing now, get dolled up and come and fetch me after work! =D We've decided to have dinner and catch a movie after that and perhaps go Esplanade. Enjoy the night life and romantic scenary. Keke! I always admire the night life down at Esplanade, it's just wonderful. Next week's terrible because I won't be able to see him from sunday till next saturday. But after saturday, he's gonna have a three days break because it marks the end of his BMT and 4 June is his POP; (POP is not pop, but pass-out-parade). In the middle of the night now, I hear lots of beats of the drum. It's some deity's birthday and they have lion dance and dragon dance. It's so noisy. Pity those living those blocks around that area. It's hard for them to turn in, what's worse is they are already in bed and got woken up by these beating.

Did I mention I went to borrow another book? I think I did and I realise the books I've interest in are most of them about love and hot sex. These 2 books I've read both included details of their sex. Well, it's not gross but it's just amazing how they can put those actions into words. Authors, amazing. You can almost picture it. I don't know what's wrong but after slacking at home most of the time, I picked up reading. Though it may not be many but it's really a miracle for me to carry a book around reading it. =D I'm happy for myself. Right. Guess it's time for me to turn in. It's not early. =)

*darling, i love you! being around you makes me very comfortable. what more can i ask for when i get embraced by your warmth hug. how can i not love you! muacks!

Janet
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Haven't been blogging for days and yep, I was busy being with my darling since saturday to monday night. I don't think I should go in to what we've been doing the past few days. I'll flood the whole blog and I can't be sure if I could remember where and what we did. There's only one thing I'm sure of, I'm really happy being around with him, wrapped or unwrapped in his arms, just as long as I'm within his presence and that he surrounds me. What's talk about what I've been doing today instead of the past few days. It's history and I doubt I can remember much about it too. I remembered him, him and only him.

Woke up at 6.15am and made special request that darling would not sms me at 5.15am and allow me to sleep till 6.15 and call me at the time to wake me up. And yes, he gave me a sweet morning call at 6.15am and I was meowing away like a kitten. That's how I normally sound when I'm awake so just 1/4 awake. Got outta bed at 6.30am and went to the bathroom to get myself cleaned. Bathed and got out around 6.50am. Called darling on his cell and chatted through the morning from the time I started to change until I had to blow dry my hair. Got out of house but at that time he had already fall in and couldn't reply to my message. Got on bus 88 and was raining heavily. Alighted at Toa Payoh Interchange and changed to bus 31. Didn't wait long till the bus came and I hop on it. Was already in the office by 8am and was raining heavily so I had to carry an umbrealla and walked with my cell on my ear. Waited for Miss Lye to come but she's sick today and she didn't turn up. Was sitting alone in the office and it meant peace, not until the boss comes in and talk to me about anything! Just hated the sight of him, I don't know man but I think I condemned his looks. >.<>.< Back to work and started reading off like a book worm. Got it done about 4.50 close to 5 plus. After work, took bus 31 and 88 back to bishan and had dinner with brother and mother. Went to return that story book and got another book. This time is called Lord of Seduction. The previous book was The Trouble With Valentine's Day by Rachel Gibson. Reached home and bathed and chatted with darling. Saw myself on tv and damn it sucked, though it might be just a second or two. chatted with darling till 11.30pm. He was supposed to be sleeping earlier but things went a little berserk and I thought I should clear that misunderstanding. We had enough misunderstandings for today. Hope tomorrow goes fine. I miss him like crazy.

*hubby, i love you. i won't mind having to repeat myself for months over and over again. As long as it's gonna be alright between us. I won't let you go, this i give you my promise and you don't have to worry. don't bottle up everything. i wanna be your friend, your wife, your fantasy, your valentine. i'm someone you can share your matters with and not someone who thinks you might be putting on more burden on me. i screwed my brain enough for today but i think it's for a good cause. i don't wanna lose you. i love you.

Janet
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Friday, May 20, 2005

Well, I've switched to take the Diploma in Theatre and I have to go down to the audition tomorrow morning. I have to wake up by 7am and reach there by 9am. It's more like a workshop cum audition because the first programme is Acting and Speech by Mr. Bla bla bla. From there they will discover our potential and select students. Pray for me, wish me luck. It will last till 12 plus and after that, I was thinking whether I should go sentosa since Xiao Pei invited me over with her group of friends. Looking at the point that hubby would be back tomorrow evening, I wouldn't wanna miss picking up his calls if I'm indulging myself on the fine sand and cooling weather. So I guess I'll be going home straight after audition. Finally I get to see him tomorrow, but still not sure where we'll gonna meet. I wouldn't mind not talking to him on the phone and not meeting him, but meeting him would be a bonus. =D Work today is a total slack! I haven't been doing anything at all today. I can still log on to Windows messenger and not being stopped or whatever. I only remembered doing 4 stacks of papers and it's damn little. Muahaha! I'm paid chatting online in the office. Keke! =P Zhuan accompanied me to take bus there today. Really sorry that I have to trouble him everytime, but I really appreciate his time and help. =) Came home by the drain and was reading my book on the train. When I reached Bishan, I was on the way to 7-11 to get Beef Jerky, then I saw Enling and gang. Chatted with them for awhile and left to buuy my Beef Jerky. Went to find Jo in Natural Source after that, chatted with her and went back. On the way back, I saw someone very familiar, so I kept looking at hime. He looked at me, and turned his glance away, and he looked right back at me again. I approached him and ask, are you Samuel? Yeah! I was right! Such a coincidence to see so many people on the way back home. Caught up with him for a little while, because it's been 2 years since I last saw him when Jo was still with Alan. Went back home and catch the last episode for "Square Pegs". Bathed at 9pm, and online till now.

Finally my MSN is working. It made me really mad yesterday. I just noticed several people are also experiencing this problem, but when I checked the MSN status yesterday, it was working perfectly, but why are some of us like that? We were unable to log in to MSN messenger, MSN.com and hotmail.com. Argh, don't care. I'm able to log in now. Haha! I was really complaining yesterday I know, I was in a foul mood. Got to wake up early tomorrow, guess I'm gonna turn in soon. I've been staring at the computer the whole day and I really meant the whole day since 8.30am.

*hubby, finally we get to see each other very soon. it's unbearable to cry every night before i sleep. my tears just couldn't stop flowing after reading your previous messages and when i look at your pictures. just reminds me of your dimples and your lame but yet really funny jokes. the warmth hug you would always give when we both cry in each other's arms. miss wiping your tears for you, miss touching your face. miss hanging out with you. miss you voice and most importantly, i love your love. we went through this whole week. i believe we can overcome even greater obstacles. i love you darling. waiting for you. muackz!

Janet
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

Ok! I'm so fucking pissed about this MSN thing! I can't log in to MSN and Hotmail the whole fucking afternoon since 12 plus! I tried going to MSN help but it wrote "Page Not Found". FUCK IT!!! What's so wrong?! I really need to go in because I received a call today afternoon, NAFA's admission department called. She told me they had to close the classes for Diploma in Theatre Production Design because there are too few applicants. Fuck! Another bad news. She told me if I was interested in other courses, she could transfer me to another course, if not she would return me the whole course fees I had paid. She told me to try for Diploma in Theatre since it's still under Performing Arts. I told her alright, I'll take that ans she told me to check my mail. She'll forward all the details to me, that's why I'm fucking anxious to check the mail and sign in to MSN. It's a habit to log online everyday. I had no choice but to call Zhuan to help me at it.

I'm meeting Zhuan again tomorrow to go to work. Sorry I had to trouble him but I'm really a road idiot and I didn't wanna get lost there, I can't afford to be late too, my pay will be deducted! I think I have to ask the boss how my pay is being calculated. It's behalf of hubby and my mother that's why I'll take this job. If not I really won't wanna take it. It's too far and inconvenient for me and fuck. I have to face those aunties! Though it may be just 3 days in a week but damn I feel so left out in there. Who can I talk to?! I can even doze off! How boring can that be? I so angry. Angry about that fucking MSN and having to go work tomorrow. Why must it be in Kallang?! So far! Far is enough, still so deserted and I had to walk all the way in! If I have to take a bus, I have to take 2 buses and still walk in! Come on! I'm using a fucking adult fare! You know how expensive is that! Take the MRT, I had to walk the dirty and dangerous drain! What if it rains?! I'll die there dammit! Hanging around with aunties, looking the youngest and being a damn freshie in the whole damn company, looking at numbers that makes me so sleepy, I was never anticipating! During Wednesday's work, I even had shoulder aches! My mother told me I used too much of the computer but hello?! I'm using the computer everyday at home, I don't get this shit but when I start working, all this shit happens. What stupid toilet which have no toilet paper and it looks so creepy. Stupid policy that everyone gets 2 rolls of toilet papers fortnightly. Can't help complaining! It's always like that. Why is life so troublesome?! When I can get a freaking good job at Natural Source where I get to see "life" rather than being stuck here in that damn office looking at aunties and uncles. The difference is, I may not get the job at Natural Source that easily but I can get this fucking job as easy as ABC when I don't even need to ask about the job and I got it! I'll be able to work with people not as that old as mine if I'm working in Natural Source. I see beautiful people. What do I see here? Horrible. I need to pay for the uniform if I'm working in Natural Source but I don't have to wear a uniform in the office. I need to go for training if I'm working in Natural Source and here I don't. I get training for free, with auntie's help. In Natural Source I can go out anytime to get somethign to eat if I'm hungry, another staff will tend the stall for that little while and I can bring the food in the stall. In the office? No! I can't get anything to eat! In Natural Source I get to use the damn phone? I don't know if I'm allowed to in the office but I doubt so. Whatever the case is, Natural Source is very flexible! Not like this office! Like wood block! Food? I get to eat whatever I want in Natural Source! I can even get Macdonalds! Office? I only see mattress, gloves, toilet papers and papers. There's only a freaking food court which serves horrible food! Comparing? Yes I am! I'm not fit to work at all. I agree myself! Nothing satisfies me! I wanna get in a freaking poly or just let me study! I can get money just like that. During school time I can even save money. Now when I work, have I saved even a single cent?! Why am I just that rotten luck! Working is tough! But I need money! Where the hell would I get money for not doing anything! Unless I die. I'll just have to wait for people to burn money for me. So much better isn't it. Troublesome life! I'm pissed and I don't have the mood to write what I've done today but I have to.

Melvin called around 1 plus and asked if I wanna get my certificate in school. I'm alright with it so I went with him. Left home around 2 plus. Went to withdraw money with mother and Melvin and mother got me a ATM card but I'm not supposed to keep it. Went to school and waited for him to get papers from his "god sisters". Left school around 4 plus and we went to Toa Payoh. Had laksa for lunch and went to play pool around 5 plus. Left Toa Payoh at 7 and reached home at 7.30pm. Had dinner and tried logging in again, I've done it couple of times in the afternoon so I thought it might be alright but it wasn't. Scanned the damn computer and I thought it might be the spywares that were making or ARE making me so pissed off. No use! Till now I still can't log in! I'm feeling so vexed! Mother just came in, though she didn't scold me or anything, I can't help feeling so vexed and now I'm bursting into tears. I feel like I'm carrying a lot of matters in me. Mother said about making the decision too fast and that I didn't think of the location whether is it convenient a not. If it wasn't her, scolding me almost everyday, saying that I always sleep so late and wake up so late, not getting a job and always go out. Saying that I'm useless to the society., would I fucking care about this job! I would get somewhere so much nearer! I had to give an answer on Sunday and at the time I was hoping to call Natural Source but I could only call on the Monday because the office is close on weekends. I got no time to make any fucking decision but just grab whatever job I have so that she won't say that I'm always waking up late and going out everyday. I need fucking money also! I'm earning in such a pissed manner. Having to trouble so many people, and that I hate the job myself, though I get to spend the whole day in the office but fuck, I hate being in there. See? In the end I'm still talking about the job.

*dear, i don't wanna pressure you with all this shit but since I'm already working there, i have no choice but to carry on. It's really unpleasant to leave just working for a day. I'll still carry on, maybe then I'll quit in mid june or even earlier. I'll slack at home after that and wait for your calls, wait for the weekends to come until I get to see you again. i hate being so troubled and some more at this period when nobody is there to console me like you always did. when at this period, i feel so helpless and that i have to miss you so much. i don't get to hear you nor see you at all. it feels just like a break up and i really don't wish to feel like this. I've spent an hour typing all these. man, i feel like shit now. it's friday tomorrow. just a day and an afternoon more to hear you. come back soon. i miss you. love you too much.

Janet
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Damn it. Work is boring. With lots of aunties gossiping around and the pathetic "stingy" boss I've heard about, for whom I'm working for. Zhuan accompanied me to Four Star instead of my mother. Was really glad he accompanied. =) Thanks! We met at 7.30am and I was a little late. Went to 7-11 to grab sweets and took the train after that. Saw Macdonalds straight down from Kallang MRT. Had Fillet-O-Fish on the way to the place. We reached there rather early. Before 8.30am I know. I waited for someone to attend to me and I waited till 9 plus when Zhi Wei broght me to see Miss Lye. Miss Lye is the one Zhi Wei mentioned to be beware of, she's sly. Well, I don't know how sly she could get, but I think she's rather nice. I'm sharing the same room as her. I was too amazed when the first thing I knew was that each of us have 2 rolls of toilet paper fortnightly, the toilet don't provide and it's always locked! We have keys to the toilet and the toilet looks really creepy. We can't be late, once we are late, they deduct the pay by minutes! All the aunties would be lining up to punch out once it's 6.05pm. They have the "bell-ring" system, after lunch the bell would ring, 6.05pm the bell would ring too. Another thing, the room is bloody cold! The air-con was blowing directly at me and Miss Lye kept complaining how hot she was. She still said sacarstically," Catch a cold already ar? Poor thing." >.< Worked on forms they had, with all the inches and feets and bed models and everything. I was really not used to looking at so many numbers at one go. Luckily, I didn't panick and I had a clear mind. Worked on several sets and when I encounter problems and Miss Lye isn't in the room, I'll get my book to read. I did even read for to an hour. I don't know where the hell she went to but I was reading and nobody cared. There was once she went to attend a meeting, I took out my brother's mp3 and pluck them in my ears. Had my own time. She came back and we went for lunch. The food sucks. Came back right quite early and started working again. Ah ma as what Zhi Wei and hubby always call her. Zhi Wei got her to show me the road to take bus after work. I appreciated it. =) Well taken care of, but I really miss him. It's been a habit that I wait for his calls everyday, every minute, every hour. Anticipating to hear him and find out what was going on in there. It's been days since I last heard nor read I miss you and I love you. This sudden "cold-war" period made it looks like we are having quarrels and didn't contact each other, or we've breaked up. Both hurting inside, wanting to see each other so badly, missing each other so much. Was once when I missed him a lot suddenly, I read through his messages. I cried in the office. Luckily nobody was around, I wiped them off quickly. The moment I look at his pictures now, I feel that ache in my heart. I feel that pinch in my nose. I wanna cry so much I always need to hold back. There were several occasions after lunch, I doezed off. My stomach took too much of my energy for digestion. Haha! Waited for the clock to ticked the way through. Went to the toilet to wash up and I felt totally energised, what's more I had just an hour more to go before I knock off! Finally it's 5.30pm and I start to see them packing up ready to go. 5.45pm, everyone is hanging around, chatting, waiting for the clock to tick to 6.05pm. Finally it;s time to go home. I lined up like what Ah ma told me to, wait for the clock to tick to 6.05pm and punch out. She took me to the bus stop, I got on 31 and sat all the way to Toa Payoh Interchange and changed to 88 and sat back to bishan. Got home around 7.10pm. Had dinner and bathed, and now blogging. I'm gonna blog everyday till friday or saturday. to make sure hubby knows what I'm doing, so he won't worry. =)

*darlin, i'm missing you like crazy. I cried so much today, when i was bathing. I felt as if you are so far away. i felt as if i lost you. i saw uncle hwee, reminds me of you. i saw your messages, i miss you so much. i could only hear your voice in my head, i couldn't see you. only your picture. it's not moving, i can't feel. i miss wiping your tears for you, i miss crying with you, i miss your touch, i miss hugging you. i really can't wait to tell you i love you and i miss you so much! you know that you are the only boyfriend i said i love you and i miss you so many times. and i meant it and it was sincere. i wanna see you asap. please....

Janet
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

I'm gonna work tomorrow. Four Stars Building, really tattered and old building. I couldn't sleep last night. I could only think of him. He was the only one who kept me awake all the while. I lied on the bed at 12 plus but ended up sleeping at 2 plus after taking a flu pill. Was tossing and turning and tearing. I even tried patting mysef to sleep but it didn't work. Slept still somehow. Received a phonecall from hubby at 5am. We chatted for about 15 minutes. It was the first time I still felt awake after picking up the phone call. Because, normally I would talk in a kitten's purr if I'm really very tired. I would go "hurrr...? hmmm..." really softly. He called again at 6am. It was after his breakfast and he's setting off to Tekong after putting down the phone and the conversation only last for a minute. We both held back saying the last bye, his throat trembled. My tears rolled down my right cheek. Took a deep breath and I went back to sleep. Uncle Hwee called at 8 plus close to 9am to inform me about the bus stop just outside the road of the Four Stars Building. Woke up at around 12.45pm and got up to inform mother that I'll be going to the office to get my pay. Asked if she wanna tag along. She tagged along and we left around 1 plus. Reached there around 2 plus and had lunch at Subway. Mother's first time having Subway but it's my second. Walked around the Korean Mart just opposite The Amara. Took the train back to Bishan after that. Jo called and was heading towards her store. Laughed at each other and put down the phone. Chatted at her stall while mother went to the ladies and the NTUC to get the spare ribs. Alan Chua was the topic, he's getting married soon?! Gosh! I can't believe it. Was on the way home when mother when to get the wheat grass drinks for my grandmother and headed home stright. It was too late to be cooking dinner but we still did. I cooked the soup for today. It's the soup I learnt from hubby's family. Corn soup. His favourite. Had dinner while watching tv. It's unhealthy. I've been doing that since my childhood, and right now I'm blogging. I've not bathed yet. I'll bath after blogging.

Gonna go there by train tomorrow with my mother. It's at Kallang Place, it's damn deserted. I can't imagine how's work gonna be. I'm not used to working with strangers. All the previous jobs I had, I always had friends with me. This time, I have my boyfriend but, I don't have him physically, only mentally. I can't dial his number. I have my mother to guide me, down this unknown road, a place she hadn't been before. I don't know if I can listen to music while working. I'm afraid if it's too quiet I'll fall asleep. I don't know if I know my way back home alone. I don't know if Uncle Hwee could give me a lift. Many uncertainties that can only be made known tomorrow onwards. ='(

*darling, today's the first day you are away. how i wish miracles happen just like how both of us ended up together. i'm hoping that i'll receive a call from you. i'm hearing your voice in my mind. i know once you read this, you will start saying sorry that you couldn't be by my side when i needed you most. i wouldn't blame you and you know i never did once. every men have to go through ns, nevertheless you. even if you don't go through it now, if we're still together years later, we'll still encounter the same problem. don't have to worry about me. i had my lunch and dinner today. i'm still alive blogging, and i never stop missing you. you have my love with you and i have yours. it's not lost. it's right here in my heart. =) i miss you lots hubby.

Janet
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Monday, May 16, 2005

Well well well, I finally get a taste of what's clubbing and I can say it's really not what I expected. Girls getting too drunk for guys to be taken advantage of and dancing in a very "ugly" and cramped place.We went to Rush and it was raining very heavily when we reached Clarke Quay and took a bus there. I thought there would be 6 people going, but in the end Hing Boon and Kelvin didn't turn up but Zhuan brought her gf instead. Zhuan and Lilian took care of our stuff while Jo, hubby and I went to dance in the corner. I do admit it was really weird dancing. It's more like you are dancing with yourself and I'm not used to it. I think I'm more used to dancing in a big group with all the same steps or perhaps with a big group of friends instead of just 3 people. Were dancing half way in our seat then suddenly the DJs turned on the lights and stopped the music. It was kinda common and it was exactly 1am. Hubby told me beforehand that around 1 plus something would happen, either fightings or the police would come and check the place. Well, he was right. 3 policemen came from the back door and scanned through everyone. It lasted for about 15 minutes and when the music was back on, duh, everyone was kinda turned off by it. I didn't have the mood to continue and so for an hour plus I just sat there and listen to the techno instead of dancing. We left at 2am and went to 7-11 to grab something to bite. I was dead hungry. I had a hard time choosing and I was really picky. In the end I ended up having Bak Kut Teh! Small bowl, really small and it ain't cheap. Went back home in a cab and yeah, I let them get changed. Lucky my brother wasn't at home that day so Jo had the advantage to sleep on his bed. Well, hubby as usual sleeps on the floor, on 2 mattresses I mean but rather thin. When they all got ready to sleep it was about 3 am already. They went to sleep and I went to bath. I can't stand the smoke stench. Blow dry my hair and went to sleep around 3.30am. We woke up around 9 plus feeling hot, or should I say they feel hot but I don't. Chat and lazed on the bed till 10 plus. My father brought us out for breakfast cum lunch. He thought of bringing us for Crystal Jade I think because he mentioned "Ramen and Xiao Long Bao". I told him hubby can't have it. He's vegetarian and I think he called up his colleague, Auntie Karen to ask which restaurant serves the best vegetarian food. Amazing! My dad actually brought us to have vegetarian meal and it ain't cheap. Think again, hubby had a place in my father's heart. If not he would not have brought us to a restaurant. He would just bring us to some coffee shop to have vegetarian food. =) I'm happy! Happy to have hubby, happy to be in this family, happy that I'm being loved and cared for.

I'm gonna start work really soon. Hubby got a job for me in his work place in Four Star. You know, that mattress company. I'm working as some admin assistant cum accountant. Darn my POA really sucks but they say they will teach. I don't know how different it would be but I hope I don't wreck it up and it's easy to pick up. I only work on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. From 8.30am to 6pm. I've already known some people in there but they don't always go to the office. I hope I can get use to it in there because I'm the youngest person in the office. The rest are older than me. I'm paid $800. But there's still CPF I need to deduct from. So in the end I get about $600+ a month? The place ain't that convenient for me but I'm well taken care of. That I'm sure.

Sobx! I just received the second last call from hubby. Tomorrow morning he's gonna call me again at 5am. It's his last call before he sets out for Tekong. I can't hear him the entire week. He's only returning on saturday nite. Sobx! I miss him so much. I'm anticipating for him to come out and we could spend time together again. He's not in yet and I'm hoping he'll come out soon. I miss him. I miss him. I love him. I love him.

Woke up at 12.45pm today. Got woken up by hubby's sms. Got up and went for lunch with mother. Had Kimchi Soup and went shopping awhile. Went to my grandma house's after that to get newspapers and went home around 4pm. Passed by EMF book store and rented a book from there for 2 months for only $4. How worth is that. Longer dateline and it's just $2 for a month. It's new books some more, not like the library books where some can be really old and tattered. That can help me pass time if I'm really bored. =) Besides missing my boy that is.

Janet
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Saturday, May 14, 2005

It's our 3rd month! Finally we get to celebrate together. The first two month we celebrated through the phone calls and yeah! He's bringing me to the clubs! Keke! Jo's tagging along, we're gonna have a hell of a time! Hmmm... Jo, hubby, Zhuan, Kelvin, Hing Boon and me! Can't wait can't wait! First and last time I'm gonna club this year. The next time would be next year when I'm so officially legal! turning 18 next year and I'm gonna wander around. It's addictive but I'll control. It's not a very good thing hanging out at those places too much too.

We're meeting rather late today because he got to stay back for RT. Duh -_- I miss him so much. Gonna come back very late today so I'm blogging right now.

Next week will be a very very lonely week for me. He's out for outfield and he can't bring his phone out. The entire week! I don't get to hear him AT ALL! I don't know how to spend. I have not get a freaking job yet. Grrr... Till next saturday then I get to see him. It's even worse than the first two weeks he spent in camp. At that point of time I still get to talk to him through the phone. No phonecalls for the ENTIRE NEXT WEEK! Sobx! =( Help!!!

Janet
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Friday, May 13, 2005

We had a little gathering organised by Geraldine. Geraldine, Jin Shun, Karine, Nicholas and me were present. Godfrey was supposed to come but he was held back with his stuff. We went to Pastamania to have our late lunch. Did a little bit of catch up and did a scan of everyone in our class of where they got into. Went to take photos after that and yeah it was great. Nicholas was hesitant though but still, under Geraldine's preaching, he joined us. Accompanied Nicholas to AMK K Pool after taking photos. My hands were itchy but duh, outta cash. Stood there chat and stand around till I saw someone familiar. It was James, and I was thinking if he's there, Wei Xiang would be there too. So I watched James went back to his table and yeah I was right. Wei Xiang was there and we did catch up a little bit. Talked about my admission again, duh I'm sick and tired of it. I got to elaborate so many times and AH! Why can't I just get in the freaking NP! Haiz... I hate it whenever they talk about what CCA they're gonna choose. If I'm in NP, I'll be having a hard time choosing. There's 3 CCA for me to choose from and they are all so good! Badminton, Cheerleading and Dance! Or even more! Just that I don't get to see them that's all. Dammit. Damn my luck. Damn my points. Damn my intellect. =(

Back to the afternoon. After hanging around K Pool for some time we decided to catch a movie. Geraldine, Karine and I watched xXx-2 and it was really great! The cars, the blacks and the songs just rocks! Wanted to catch House of Wax but Karine had already catched it and it's pathetic how many shows AMK is showing. Only 4 shows, only 4! Divergence, House of Wax, xXx-2, and Kingdom of Heaven I think. Had our dinner after the show and came back home at 10pm. Had my bath and waited for hubby to call. He had late training so he called at about 11. Lucky I didn't wait for him to call. If not, mama's gonna start nagging again. After the phone call and now here I am blogging.

Gonna call The Natural Source tomorrow and ask if they are hiring any part timers. I need a job desperately. I'm too broke to do anything! Gimme the MONEY!!!

Janet
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

My monitor had been down for days and finally I get to touch my lovely baby. Haven't been blogging for days and quite a lot had happened. The only deepest impression I had and what made me feel really blessed is that I got to stay over at hubby's house on saturday! Love him so much! I really cherished the time we had. =D

On saturday, met hubby at his place. Went to Mei Jun's BBQ at night. Then came back around 9 plus 10. Stayed in his room and watched tv together with Xiao Min. Watched till 1 plus, and went to sleep. But darn, I can't sleep. Tossed and turned till 3 plus and I tried to wake hubby up a few times. He didn't know he woke up like 2 times? I woke him up for the third time then he didn't went back to sleep so he kept me company till about like 4 plus? I cried and I had no idea why. He got shocked and comforted me. Felt better and I slept in his arms. Whoo... Blessed! =D

Woke up at 7am on sunday morning. Hubby got up to cook noodles for his mummy, it was Mother's day. Watched him cooked and I do admit that he's a good cook. =) Ain't I fortunate to have a guy who cooks? Keke! He's all mine! Got out in the afternoon to meet my family and brought my brother out to play LAN. Hubby insisted to bring him out. So yeah, I learnt to play CS. Darn, I got shot so many times. I'm really bad at it. Went back home and prepared to go for wedding dinner. Brought hubby home and he played NSF2 with my brother. While I bathed and doll up. Darn! I've gained weight! Sobx! Went to Swissotel and damn the conference hall is really grand and it's really nice and romantic. I wanna hold my wedding there as well! The lightings are fabulous! I don't know how to describe. A very nice experience.

Today, I went to KBox with Melvin, Theodore, Jin Shun and Guan Heng. Had a really great day with them. Came back home to have dinner and went to meet Jo and Andy after that. Pervertic idiot. Grrr.. Don't wanna talk mucha bout him. It's late now and I'm still on the phone with Jo. We're going clubbing this saturday 14 may! It's our 3rd month! =) Gonna bring Jo and hubby home to sleep. Keke.. Right. It's late. Better stop for now.

*I love you hubby. Anticipating to see you this weekend! Muackz!

Janet
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Friday, May 06, 2005

Finally it's the last day of his live firing. It's been three days since I last had long conversations with him. He could only call me in the mornings and midnights. It's the friday! I can talk to him for long hours at last, but it seems to me like we are running outta topics to talk about. We'll talk like the everyday topics like what we've been doing and stuff like that. Though it's not interesting, I just feel better as long as I get to hear him. I'm on the phone with him now, but I'm listening to music and he's listening and talking to his friends. Haven't been doing much today, woke up and started cracking my brain. Tried to figure out the jigsaw pieces with my brother. He came back extremely early, he had exams and came back home around 10 plus. Went out with my mother after that and came back around 4 plus to catch the live funeral service of Dr. Wee Kim Wee. From what his grand daughter had wrote about him, I could tell he's a really sentimental man. Which man would keep a record of his wife's ten favourite songs in a folder and wrote it according to preference? Who would bring his grand children to have ice cream everyday? Planned a grand 68th wedding anniversary and gave his wife 3 kisses and a jade brooch? How romantic. I admired his acts and his wisdom. The only university he attended is the university of life, the words of Dr. Wee that people kept emphasizing. He did not even complete his O levels. But he learnt from his working and social life. He's a badminton player too!

Yesterday I went to collect my rackets, got it re-stringed and changed the grips. Went to Marina Square and wanted to play pool but it was too expensive. $8.40 for an hour! We left the place and left for Suntec to do some shopping. Choon May and Wen Quan were with me. We did some shopping and Wen Quan tagged along. He's a really nice guy to hang out with, he won't be those typical guys who would not follow girls into those girly shops. He tagged along and gave suggestions. Very nice guy! Girls shouldn't give him a miss. Went shopping and finished at about 7.30pm. Went back home and had dinner. Hogged on the computer like my everyday routine. Logging on the computer had become a part of my life. I would go online almost everyday unless I'm out or my brother's using it.

I've grown fat! I had that little tummy and it looks horrible! Whenever I'm full, I feel as if I'm pregnant. It looks like it had been 2 months! How horrible can that be?! It's bulging and I feel uncomfortable and I look ugly with those clothes. Urgh! I did exercise but my butt got bigger. Why?! It always happens when I start playing badminton. My thighs and butt gets bigger and I'll start complaining and I'll have a very big problem wearing clothes. I'm so afraid to step up that weighing machine. =( I'm off to bath right now. Gotta catch the Fann Wong show later. It's getting exciting!

Found some really cool clips. Take a good look at it.
Sadako

Basketball Pro

Janet
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Thursday, May 05, 2005

Haven't been talking to him the whole day today! I miss you so much darling! Hope to hear ya later. I demanded him to call. Keke! =D What have I been doing today?

Woke up at 11.30am, woken up by my manager. She wants me to work tomorrow but in the end I don't have to. Washed up and got ready to leave the house aroound 12 plus. Went to Toa Payoh with mother. Went to have our lunch first and went shopping after that. We walked to Hang Ten and Giordano. Mother bought a white polo with blue collar. Dropped my books at the library and went to meet Choon May and Shu Qin for badminton. It was raining heavily and there was no shelter so we had to walk in the rain. We were standing at the traffic lights and the rain was pouring on us. We're waiting for the green light to appear so we just chatted along. We stood there like idiots! Because the maid on the bike was in front of the traffic light with her umbrella and she didn't pressed the button! We stood there drenched and I was complaining away, don't think she understood me though. Haha! So we reached the courts drenched and we made bookings for the courts. Saw our school students playing on the courts, but they ain't playing badminton! They were playing volleyball! Like what the heck?! With soccer ball? Playing volleyball?! The ball hit on the glass windows like it's gonna break any minute. We were very pissed with them, not just with the glass windows but also the noise they made. It's unbearable! The ball keeps rolling into our courts and those guys just don't know any basic manners! They step in in the middle of the game like nobody's business. How rude. The cups they drank, they left it everywhere! So unsightly! At certain times we're so pissed we just wanted to give them a piece of mind. What's more I was wearing my badminton jersey with the school name on it. I looked more like a senior, the more I felt pissed with their behaviour. Lucky they left around 4 plus when we carried on playing till about 5pm. Left the place and went to get apples and more apples, it's so nice. Shu Qin went to give tuition while Choon May and I went to Bras Brasah Complex to get our rackets re-string. Was playing half way when my racket strings just broke. Well, it's time I should doll up my racket too. It's been about 2 years since I last changed the grip and everything. Went back home after that, we're all dead tired. Back home, had my dinner, watched tv till 10 and went to bathe. I know I stink, but the tv was attracting me. Haha! After that I'm hogging on the computer till now.

I realised something. It's 050505 now! 05 May 2005! How interesting! I'll be returning to Bras Brasah Complex to collect my rackets. Perhaps play a game of pool after that. =D That's today and tomorrow. Hubby hubby I miss you! Call me asap! =D

Janet
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Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Darn. My dad got poor memory! He showed us the happy tree friends webby and wanna show us again. And I thought was some new stuff. He just switch my user without telling me and he showed us the same old thing. What happened after that is that when my brother was switching back to my user, it hanged, AGAIN! Twice! Yesterday and today, and I was blogging half way! And I wrote quite a lot! Now I have to do it all over again. Grrr! I'll keep it short and simple I guess. I don't wanna do it again.

On Saturday, went to meet dear at Kenny's place at Serangoon. After he's done with his bald hair, we went to Serangoon North to buy lunch for his family which was about 4pm by then. Went back to his place and had lunch, slack around and left his place about 6 plus. Went to Marina to meet his primary school friends. They were having a gathering and I felt really weird tagging along. "Marina-phobia" is what I'm having now. Whenever I hear about Marina it reminds me of how my handbag was stolen. Now that I went back to Marina again, I cling onto my handbag like my child. What's more is that it's the same bag that was stolen, just that the colour is different this time. It's black now but previously was khaki in colour. Finished eatign at about 10pm and went to the arcade after that and went to play pool. I didn't play, I watched them play. Lefta at about 11.45pm and we missed the last bus. So dear dialled a cab and we went back home and he stayed at my place. Sunday we woke up and were playing NFS underground. Really old game but still fun playing it. Went to his lion dance place after that and went back to his place at about 4 plus. Slack there and had dinner at his place. Zhuan called, met up and chat. Went back to his place to watch the Jacky show. Hong Yao came and borrowed VCDs. Left dear's place at about 10.30pm. He sent me home and after he reached home not long, we chat on the phone for a while and he's off to sleep. He woke up at 7am when he slept at about 12 plus 1! He went to have breakfast with his mother while I'm still in bed dreaming. He bought breakfast for me and came over my place. I was still in bed sleeping when I heard the keys. He came in my room and woke me up. Was really tired, so I lazed around. Washed up and have breakfast. He's like part of my family already. We both had honey and he knows where stuff are placed. Brother came back home because the night before he was sleeping over at his friend's place. He came back and showed me his jigsaw puzzle. Helped him with it and I helped him a lot. It's almost done now. That's what happened this few days.

Today, I woke up at about 1.30pm. Dear called at 5.30am and 6.30am. He have his live firing for the next 3 days so he won't be calling me like usual. Miss him a lot. Woke up and started cracking my brain. Did the jigsaw and after that went to do some grocery shopping with mother and had my breakfast cum lunch. Was shopping around at J8 and mother bought me the Giordano black Lycra Polo! =) The black polo I was yearning for. Went To NTUC after that and bought ingredients for dinner. I prepared black pepper pork cubes with green pepper today! First time cooking it and it was a bit too salty. Had dinner at 7.45pm and finished about 8.40pm. Continue with the jigsaw and watched tv at 9pm. Bathed in between the show and came out continue watching. Dear called at about 9.50pm. Talked to him till 10.30pm and he's off to sleep. Now I'm back here blogging for the second time. What's more pissing me is that somethign's wrong with my MSN!!! I can't receive files from people neither can I send! It wrote "
][ Janet ][ fourteen february - cast the spell - ChOnG^ChOnG - tried to send you a file (50 Cent - Disco Inferno (Dirty).mp3). This file has been blocked because it is potentially unsafe." What the hell is wrong?! I made exception for this MSN messenger. I don't have firewall for this but still AHHHH!!! WHY!!! HELP ME!!!

Janet
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